Musings Of A Wordsmith

We moderate and restrain ourselves to make the world easier for everyone else at the cost of increasing our own burdens. We make ourselves cogs in the machinery of society but we are not MAKING ourselves when we sacrifice all our uniqueness. We make ourselves replaceable and you are anything but replaceable.

I could list a number of reasons why I didn’t but the excuses aren’t important or the reason I started this missive.

The surest way to positive changes in our lives is consistent, repetitive change. Is building and re-enforcing habits of the things we want to do and should be doing.

Ignorance is a companion that follows us all our life and we can ignore it until it becomes a mountain that damages us and everything around us or we can stuff it with knowledge so it becomes a library deep with lore and dark corners waiting to be filled.

And a pleasure I had not indulged in, in quite some time. It’s not that my life is starved for happiness or fun. Far from it, it’s that I kept putting off this particular pleasure for one reason or another. It was late, I was tired, this episode is really interesting, I should be cooking, etc, etc.

Now if you were doing the math you’d realize the day I just described costs 47 mana. That 24 mana for an eight hour work day really adds. up. And you can see that the person with 30 mana is working at a 14 mana deficit.

This presumes my math is correct. Being a poorly programmed A.I.I am terrible at math.

There was something about the way the fat oozed into the pan and the meat charred and pulled together that was disgusting to her. It didn’t used to be, she never thought of it before. But now it was like looking at herself, her old self melting away into offal. The her before ascension. Was I an ugly lump of meat and fat too?

That is true for me this week. For many people this week, or the week previous is Spring Break. Some people, particularly in professions related to education, get this time off. Many who do not have professions related to education take this time off as well.

I had hoped to join them, but could not and for a time, I was upset.

We often fill our futures with regrets of the past. If I hadn’t done X then I wouldn’t be in Y situation. And earning from your past is both necessary and intelligent. However selling your future to your past, to those past recriminations robs you of the present and only increases the burden you will bare.

It is also Nowruz what may be called “Persian New Year.” A celebration I have only just learned about but do not find surprising at all. All around the world different cultures, peoples and religions find great meaning in this day whether it is the renewal of spring or the coming harvest of autumn.

The Champions strode down the beach and carefully climbed into the boat. Once again Durkon set himself at the boat’s stern but he did not push them into the waters, not yet.

“Harmen, what if we don’t--” began Ord.

Harmen slapped the dwarf on the shoulder. “Don’t even think about it. We made you a promise Ord, and what do I always say?”

Ord smiled. “The only thing the Champions can’t break, is a promise.”

You are not a unique snowflake. You are not so small and fragile. You are a verdant continent of rich valleys, dark forests, and towering mountains. You are a continent adrift upon an ocean of terrifying emotions and awe inspiring storms.

I had an opportunity, today, to give someone a very bad day. To be clear I would have been in my rights to do so, no sane person would have faulted me for it. They messed up, were clearly at fault and their mistake caused me discomfort. It would have been easy to take my pound of flesh.

They marched down he rocky slope to the wind swept beach, a procession, not to a funeral, but a resurrection. The guardian greeted them with a simple nod, her face exposed to the winds and the ragged cloth about her body threatening to pull away in the breeze.

I don’t know that there is such a thing as empty calories when it comes to philosophy. There are, however, empty people who throw you these scraps of wisdom and just leave you to figure it out yourself. It’s like saying “eat healthy” and expecting you to just figure out what that means for you.

This is not a come to Jesus moment.

Ord spun on the human, fists balling and ready to strike. Instead, however, he slammed his mouth shut with such force it jarred his jaw. It wasn’t Harmen’s fault, he wanted it to be Harmen’s fault, but the human didn’t deserve his rage.

Dreams are beautiful they are inspirational and one must never give up on dreaming. It is such intangible things as our dreams that make us human and tell us who we are. However dreaming is not enough, you need goals, you need plans, you need ways to take steps toward that dream and to seize the opportunities that will enable it.

Well I commonly tell one of my friends, “I want you to keep the promises you make to yourself.” Apt, I think with many of us having made New Years resolutions and promised to ourselves we would, loose weight, or call our family more, or whatever we felt strongly about when we decided to make a pact with ourselves.

No one knows how incredible you can be if you let go of the things holding you back. You don’t know what you can achieve if you leave just one thing behind you that you no longer need. I don’t know. But I’m willing to wager that you will become magnificent.

However that need not be a thing we reserve for the year’s end. We always work hard for the future, we always suffer through dark times and we always pray that the future will be bountiful. So we can always celebrate the good times of the past, our hopes for the future and the wonder brought by loving family and friends.